ChrisTheJeweler

So I am doing amazing!!!!! haveing a much easier time now that I see a light at the end of this dark depressing tunnel I do have a BF and we hae plans on getting me off Long Island!!! I am very excited and nervous... but Let's hope things go right!!!!! alright on to other things... I just recently did a photoshoot with Danielle... it came out AWESOME!!! I am gonna be posting one for my ID and then I am creating another deviant for when I model and what not Here's the link: chrismurphyphotos.deviantart.c… I hope you take a look and watch me on there to lol
I am proboble moving very soon... not 100% sure but hopefully I will be... I think this will be a good change in pace for me

I am always suprised by people who think that they know me so well and then when they ask why I'm upset and I tell them.. They're COMPLETELY shocked! And then proceed to tell me how I shouldnt be upset over a stupid little thing like that. My past life means alot to me...and the fact that I had to leave it all behind crushes me every single day. And yes I do wish that there was a switch I could switch I could flip and be straight and go back to that, becaus things would be so much easier. I would still have a mother that cared for me. Now this doesnt mean that I don't love being gay. I have fought my whole life to hide and supress who I truely am, I can finally accept and be happy with who I am. Yes I have regrets and things I wish I could change. looking around the gay community really doesn't encourage me much... All I see are shallow insults and petty fighting. I know there are some great people out there and I am blessed to know some of them but sometimes I think everyone needs to take a step back and really look at how horrible we sometimes treat each other... The fact that everyone is only looking for a "hot" guy is very disharening. & yes I have my hot guys from Tumblr folders but that doesnt mean I only wanna date someone that looks like that.... When I look for someone I want someone whos gonna be there for me in the long run... not someone who's gonna be more concerend about how their tan is fading or their hair is the wrong color. I am tired of being shut down because I am not the "hot" standard...

So I was approached by a friend and asked to do a nude photoshoot. The idea behind it and being expressed in the shoot will be the problems that each subject has being in the gay community. They're will be one word or sentence of an insecurity/hardship that each subject has. I'm kinda excited about it but also not really at the same time. There is a reason I stay behind the camera... I look bad in pictures and I hate my body... but I suppose that's a reason I should do it... Anyone have any thoughts on it?